I don’t understand my feelings what so ever. I think I might have a crush I shouldn’t have. That would just complicate life a whole lot more than is okay with me. There are certain people who I would like to remain where they are. And yet, I find myself questioning what if? What if there was more? What would it be like? I learned not too long ago, though, that there truly is no coming back from that. What do I value the most? I have to figure that out. And what if I do value more? Would they feel the same way? If they didn’t… if they did….
I don’t know what to do. And I feel like I can’t tell anyone either. I’m scared. I feel like I’m constantly scared. It’s possible what I’m feeling is a rebound, or loneliness, or some lie instead of true emotion.
I don’t know.